the marrying kind

um hello

Sat, 04 May 2013 01:24:45 -0400

sometimes i get really anxious and stuff and i start to lose my grip

just ticked off at everyone and everything

Fri, 03 May 2013 01:22:54 -0400

Rethinking Over

Thu, 02 May 2013 10:00:23 -0400

it’s almost been 7 months now. 7 months and several relapses. i said that i was done. that i was over it. but what does that really mean? over it.

i used to think that i got ‘over’ things, moved on, pretty quickly. I mean i think that it becomes kind of a coping mechanism when you’ve, on average, moved to a new state once every four years of your life.

recently, though, i’ve found that, realistically, i probably have issues with emotional suppression. that my so called ‘coping mechanism’ has become a crutch that allows me to ignore how i really feel. sadness for the people, places, and things that i’ve left behind; anger towards my parents for never considering how moving around so much may one day affect more than just where i call home; regret for leaving behind so many loose ends in friendships…

but regardless, i can’t change any of that. i can only be more aware. but the whole subject is a topic for a different post.

the point is, despite that i don’t feel the same way about you as i did all those months ago, there is something that i feel that i was unaware was there. I can go for days and weeks without seeing you, talking to you, touching you. but when i come across you unexpectedly, you’re still the one who puts the biggest smile on my face. it’s just so natural i don’t even have time to process who you are and the goofy grin is already there. and i realize, that despite all the things i tell myself, all the waning feelings and mistrust i have for you, there’s still something deep down that lingers. something that, in my most blind and naked moments, will reveal itself to surprise me.

but i can never tell you any of this. because you can manipulate me in ways i’ll never understand. because i’m not strong enough to stand on my own yet. so the walls must go up. and i’ll just have to get ‘over’ it.

"if you want to go fast, go alone. if you want to go far, go together."

Mon, 29 Apr 2013 02:33:03 -0400

“if you want to go fast, go alone. if you want to go far, go together.”

- african proverb (via aprilbug)

is it okay if i'll still love you?

Thu, 25 Apr 2013 02:26:37 -0400

aprilbug:

is it okay if i try to move on and see other people, but i leave a tiny bit of hope in my heart that you’ll come back to me one day? is it okay that i’ll miss you and miss seeing you and talking to you? is it okay if i’ll still cry when i think about you?

is it okay for me to know now that i’ll never really stop loving you?

or does that make me weak?

wot.

Thu, 28 Mar 2013 18:00:44 -0400

wot.

"I’m always surprised how unbalanced I become when your hand lets go."

Wed, 27 Mar 2013 21:00:44 -0400

“I’m always surprised
how unbalanced I become
when your hand lets go.”

- Daily Haiku on Love by Tyler Knott Gregson (via tylerknott)

"Date yourself. Take yourself out to eat. Don’t share your popcorn at the movies with anyone. Stroll..."

Wed, 27 Mar 2013 18:00:35 -0400

“Date yourself. Take yourself out to eat. Don’t share your popcorn at the movies with anyone. Stroll around an art museum alone. Fall in love with canvases. Fall in love with yourself.”

- (via dayterror)
i do all of that… except falling in love with myself.

gahh…

Tue, 26 Mar 2013 21:00:22 -0400

gahh…

Photo

Tue, 26 Mar 2013 18:00:28 -0400

im quite scared that im losing any and all moral sense of self.

Tue, 26 Mar 2013 00:36:43 -0400

im quite scared that im losing any and all moral sense of self.

i really like bears :)

Mon, 25 Mar 2013 21:00:23 -0400

i really like bears :)

movies

Mon, 25 Mar 2013 20:26:25 -0400

iron man 3 - may 3

the great gatsby - may 10

star trek into darkness - may 17

epic - may 24

superman - june 14

monsters university - june 21

despicable me 2 - july 3

the wolverine - july 26

percy jackson sea of monsters - aug 16

mortal instruments - aug 23

thor the dark world - nov 9

so excited!

"Discover why you’re important, then refuse to settle for anyone who doesn’t completely agree."

Mon, 25 Mar 2013 18:00:57 -0400

“Discover why you’re important, then refuse to settle for anyone who doesn’t completely agree.”

-
Fisher Amelie, Thomas & January (via birthofasupervillain)

its taking me awhile to figure that…

v0q: by tigric (Ana Stefanović) why isnt this my backyard?

Sun, 24 Mar 2013 21:00:31 -0400

v0q:

by tigric (Ana Stefanović)

why isnt this my backyard?

artruby: Nick Van Woert, Poor Me (2010). art is mindblowing

Sun, 24 Mar 2013 18:00:34 -0400

artruby:

Nick Van Woert, Poor Me (2010).

art is mindblowing

lolsofunny

Sat, 23 Mar 2013 21:00:25 -0400

lolsofunny

selenescript: Passion Puddle, 2012 troy.

Sat, 23 Mar 2013 18:00:29 -0400

selenescript:

Passion Puddle, 2012

troy.

"Oh how well we fit when your legs wrap around mine under the covers."

Fri, 22 Mar 2013 21:00:25 -0400

“Oh how well we fit
when your legs wrap around mine
under the covers.”

- Daily Haiku on Love by Tyler Knott Gregson (via tylerknott)

"In a child’s eyes, a mother is a goddess. She can be glorious or terrible, benevolent or filled with..."

Fri, 22 Mar 2013 18:00:43 -0400

“In a child’s eyes, a mother is a goddess. She can be glorious or terrible, benevolent or filled with wrath, but she commands love either way. I am convinced that this is the greatest power in the universe.”

- N. K Jemisin, A Hundred Thousand Kingdoms (via helplesslyamazed)